2013, lol.

Only 12 days since 2013 started and I'm wishing for it to end badly. I guess shits I recieve since the first day makes me think that 2013 is screwed up. Nothing can change this negative mindset because days after it just proves it all. I dread school so much. Having to face insults after insults. I didn't care about studies during 2012 but trust me, I AM GONNA STUDY SO DAMN HARD AND PROVE TO THE PEOPLE WHO LOOK DOWN ON ME that I can suceed. I will suceed. And I thank God for my bestfriend for always being there despite all the shits I do.

I don't know.

Yknow the feeling when someone you trust so much end up leaving you? Someone whom promise to be there for you and end up gone? What if they never leave? Will I be happier? Or will I be sad like now knowing that they are pretending to be someone I can trust. Someone I can rely on. Kills me to know that I am sometimes that easy to let go. That easy to be forgotten. Don't know what I did wrong. But I guess I just wanted more attention. If that is why people leave me then I'm sorry. Sorry I needed more attention as a friend because I didn't want to be treated like shit. Sorry I needed more attention cause I didn't want to feel invisible. Sorry I needed more attention because my insecurities is acting up. Sorry I needed more attention because I'm done being treated as fool, being the only one that cares, being the one people can rely on but yet not having anybody to rely on. Well, somebody is out from the list of people I trust. Nope, not being proud of it. Just wonder why, things change, I change and he changed. Thankyou for the memories though. Thankyou for being my bestfriend even if it was just for a short while. Well you think its that easy for me to give a friendship up? Think again. I gave up because holding on bring me pains. So I give up. Goodbye.